Diest?apa diest?apa agnostic deist? agnostic diest?HELP!?

: hi, i was wondering if someone could clear things up for me i have very strong deist beliefs, but also i want to leave open the fact that i don't know if the creator really exist i just know if he does/did it fallows my deist beliefs but i sill want to leave it open that it might not be there, is this agnostic diest or ive heard apathetic deist or also apathetic agnostic deist witch is a mouthful ,so yeah i have all the strong deist beliefs except for knowing for certain the creator really exist, i just want to leave this part open?can i do that or do i have to say yes or no hahah like i said my root is deist for sure its just the creator part i'm unsure and want to leave it that way without havening to decide